keep =) .

放不下,
.
不是怕没面子.
不是输不起.
.
是因为舍不得.
.
既然当初有勇气拿起,
就要有放得下的准备.
.
原谅我未能满足你的所有.
.
你我都没错,
只是时间不适合 .
.
也许会再有那么的一天,
我们再次的相遇 .
.
也许会再有那么的一天,
当你走累了 .
.
请你记得我都会在你左右,
时时刻刻的为你守候 .
.
我会因为你,
继续的微笑 .
..=)
.

生命中的最舍不得 .

很久没更新了,
期间脑里充满了想法.
．
一直都很想写一些东西,
但是却偏偏写不出来.
．
究竟是自己不够狠心?
还是太过执着?
．
既然你已选择放弃,
为何我还在在乎那些承诺?
．
伤害所造成的烙印,
依然感觉痛楚和清晰可见.
．
我曾尝试过不把它当作一回事,
但是原谅我真的无能为力.
．
借醉消愁不能了事,
隔天醒来问题依然还在.
．
我真想学会自私自利,
不顾及他人感受.
．
我从不曾怪你,
却经常在埋怨自己.
．
我不知怎么了.
是病了吗？
会痊愈吧？
．
可知你是我生命中最舍不得．
我会学着放弃你，
是因为我太爱你．
．

i wish , i hope , i expect . but nothing .

things doesn't seems so good..
it's back again..
or it never been fade away since that very 1st day ?
shall we practice to expect ?
what if they never happen ?
then what should we do ?
i seems wished to fall into the well again..
even tho i feel that it might be endless bottom this time..
but i'm not afraid..
because i'm prepared to get drawn..
at least i could prove something..
or should say we make an opportunity..
so, will u give me a hand ?

很爱很爱你.

很爱很爱你
所以愿意
舍得让你
往更多幸福的地方飞去.
.
Crap !!
1st, i am not a bird neither she.
2nd, i ain't snake.
i am a human with warm blood.
.
bloody hell lyrics..
情情爱爱毋搞我, 我努力揾钱好过.
毋爱情唔会饿死, 毋钱肯定会饿死.
放我一马, 我已经好累.
请帮我跳过这一幕.

stand up .

还记得小学的时候，每一年的运动会我都会参与.

有一年，跑到中途的时候，我却突然摔了一跤.

膝盖和手掌都流血不止，

但我依然爬起来，继续向前跑，

最终为自己夺得季军和免费的红新月会包扎服务.

.

我虽然跌倒了，但我会爬起来.

因为我不服气，也爱挑战，更爱面子.

.

每当我摔了一跤，都可能需要一些时间来修复，

但是很快的，我就能够再次站起来，

而且站得比以前更加的稳.

.

感谢那些瞧不起我的人们，

谢谢你们那些天真无知般的异人眼光.

.

most familiar stranger .

....................i don't remember since when,

..................i dare not look into your eyes anymore..

................you start treating me politely..

..............you never want to talk to me..

............you never laugh on my humors..

..........you never want to share good news with me..

........you never want to reply my messages nor emails..

......every steps that you'd made would only forcing yourself..

....you can stop that as i know it's hard for you to do so..

..just let me do it by myself, that would be easier for you..

.

.....................probably since the day,

.....................we are now the most familiar stranger..

.

would u read about this ?

life is getting miserable..

too much things happened recently..

yet, there's more to come..

i wonder if there will be any good one ?

yea, there will be one,

at least one after this..

because it's the beginning of the bad..

.

still remember all the things that you had said to me..

indeed,

very clearly in my mind i would said..

but are they going to come true ?

perhaps..

because reality is always cruel..

you even might not remember what you had said to me i guess..

.

maybe i'm one of the silly person who's going to extinct soon..

who would insist to keep promises towards others and always hope the same in return..

extinct animal are valuable,

but extinct human don't even worth for a cent..

i shall never do something like that anymore to anyone..

unless if it's you..

.

i think you won't even will read about this..

just,

if there's a day you feeling tired and don't wish to walk anymore,

u may come over to me,

and we'll go further together..

don't forget that my promises is still counting as long as i'm alive..

i'm sure you would know where am i..

.

bless >*

.

nightmare .

sometimes,

.

some silly and unlogic nightmare in this reality would

just kicked your sexy ass up from the middle of nite..

.

that is when u feel your heart pumping faster than usual,

sweating cold sweats, feeling hot even if u're sleeping in a refrigerator..

.

then u would wish there's someone beside

u wish to let u hugging each other tightly..

.

and u would try to get back to sleep but u hardly sleep

anymore as millions of things turning up in your mind..

.

therefore, u start rolling from left to right,

up to down, upside down to backside down,

or even start doing stretching exercises on your bed..

.

i had too much recently..

.

please don't push her..

u can take me..

just leave her alone..

please...

.

kiss a 10 .

today's dinner at kissaten..

Crunchy Stewed Pork Slice
chewy instead of crunchy..
if u don't mind chewing u may try it..

Seafood Spaghetti in Tomato Sauce
i think they should use other seafood ingrediants as well rather than just prawn.. it serves with a choice of white sauce or tomato sauce..

Pork Belly Spaghetti
pinkish porku with a golden half boiled egg..
not only sexy..
but taste great too..

Dark Choco Pudding
this taste fantastic..
it's really firm and the sweetness was just right..
i feel so pork after had so much of porku..
=@
.
你们知道吗?
其实,
放屁 放手也是一种温柔,
更是一种爱 .
.

just hold your mug tight !!

so we had finally made a reunion at last thursday night..

incomplete group photo at apartment the curve..
and we had our second round at wabisabi located in ttdi plaza..
it was raining and maybe that's the reason why there weren't much people there.. anyway, we did heat up the ambience..

Cheers !!

Genie & Me

Jaz, and kenneth-s beside me..

things getting worse after playing with thumb master..
i saw fingers pointing all around..
i saw people vomitted..

tau fu aka gay fa & hendy
i saw people get closer than usual..
i saw people who was acting sober..

group photo..

i am responsible for what i did..
so i drank..

semut + me

i saw people stoned..

i saw stars turning around on my head..

i am drunk

i nearly bang into a tree..

because i was skiing in the heavy rain with my car..

thank god i'm still alive to get more drunk next time..

hahaha..

owh shit, i forgot to steal the pink cusion home..

damn it !!

.

.

i will keep you deep into my heart..

no matter how long it takes..

thank you..

.

it's raining "

it had been a while since i walked under the rain..

with an umbrella,

walking alone in the road under the heavy rain..

.

it's long , it's cold, and it's wet..

i feel tiny for no reason..

.

looking at the rain drops,

everything seems to be quiet at that moment..

.

listening to the rythems of the rain,

do you hear it ?

.

i heard..

i feel void..

.

a picture on the other day flashed into my mind,

a little boy playing swing alone in the empty and quiet playground..

.

he was smiling even he was playing with himself..

a strange feeling came into my heart..

.

i wonder...

.

.

what kind of rain,

what kind of night,

what kind of me,

would only made you missing me more ?

.

it's tired to hold an umbrella alone..

.

when would you see me drunk ?

.

i wonder...

.

自欺欺人 .

就算，

.

戏演得再逼真，

.

谎言说的再真实，

.

.

却

.

永远骗不了自己 .

.

.

因为自己能够感觉到，

.

心里在淌着血 .

.

.

之前的伤痕，

.

狠狠的再次中了一箭。

.

.

我希望

.

你所说的话 ,

.

没有半句谎言 .

.

.

因为我知道，

.

自欺欺人的行为，

.

.

真的

.

很难受 .

.

.

十分的感谢 ,

.

万分的抱歉 .

.

silence .

在

.

拿起手机想拨给你

.

的时候，

.

.

你的电话却出现

.

在屏幕中 .

.

.

通话后,

.

.

习惯的让你

.

把电话先挂上.

.

.

嘟嘟响起了三声,

.

我愣了十分钟,

.

手机还在耳旁,

.

耳朵却再也听不见些什么 .

.

.

那种感觉，

.

很空虚 .

.

.

真的

.

.

不好受 .

.

don't be afraid..

我又在人群中

.

和你走失了

.

.

你别慌 .

.

.

你别害怕 .

.

.

有听见

.

我正在叫你吗 ?

.

.

别乱走

.

.

我正在努力

.

寻找着你的踪影

.

.

请你忍耐着一切的不适 .

.

.

相信我 .

.

.

很快的 ,

.

.

我便会在人群中

.

找回你 .

.

conclusion..

my 2008

.

january - pain

.

february - sorrow

.

march - recovering

.

april - insistence

.

may - 100th days

.

june - stress

.

july - friends

.

august - happy birthday

.

september - be prepared

.

october - exploring

.

november - floating

.

december - you, brought me home

.

>*

i'll keep my promises..

等待

------

盼望

------

却不敢

--------

期待

------

对你说的每句话,

-----------------

都牢记在脑海里.

-----------------

不管 . 怎样,

--------------

都

---

会一直,

在这里.

--------

只因为,

我相信.

--------

总会有哪一天,

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到来.

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