keep =) .

放不下,
.
不是怕没面子.
不是输不起.
.
是因为舍不得.
.
既然当初有勇气拿起,
就要有放得下的准备.
.
原谅我未能满足你的所有.
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你我都没错,
只是时间不适合 .
.
也许会再有那么的一天,
我们再次的相遇 .
.
也许会再有那么的一天,
当你走累了 .
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请你记得我都会在你左右,
时时刻刻的为你守候 .
.
我会因为你,
继续的微笑 .
..=)
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生命中的最舍不得 .

很久没更新了,
期间脑里充满了想法.
．
一直都很想写一些东西,
但是却偏偏写不出来.
．
究竟是自己不够狠心?
还是太过执着?
．
既然你已选择放弃,
为何我还在在乎那些承诺?
．
伤害所造成的烙印,
依然感觉痛楚和清晰可见.
．
我曾尝试过不把它当作一回事,
但是原谅我真的无能为力.
．
借醉消愁不能了事,
隔天醒来问题依然还在.
．
我真想学会自私自利,
不顾及他人感受.
．
我从不曾怪你,
却经常在埋怨自己.
．
我不知怎么了.
是病了吗？
会痊愈吧？
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可知你是我生命中最舍不得．
我会学着放弃你，
是因为我太爱你．
．

i wish , i hope , i expect . but nothing .

things doesn't seems so good..
it's back again..
or it never been fade away since that very 1st day ?
shall we practice to expect ?
what if they never happen ?
then what should we do ?
i seems wished to fall into the well again..
even tho i feel that it might be endless bottom this time..
but i'm not afraid..
because i'm prepared to get drawn..
at least i could prove something..
or should say we make an opportunity..
so, will u give me a hand ?

很爱很爱你.

很爱很爱你
所以愿意
舍得让你
往更多幸福的地方飞去.
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Crap !!
1st, i am not a bird neither she.
2nd, i ain't snake.
i am a human with warm blood.
.
bloody hell lyrics..
情情爱爱毋搞我, 我努力揾钱好过.
毋爱情唔会饿死, 毋钱肯定会饿死.
放我一马, 我已经好累.
请帮我跳过这一幕.

he is coming .

i still couldn't believe this is true but now it seems to be a fact..
he is coming..
i could already imagine how long the queue would be
when there's something going on at his place..
happening location..
with a 24/7 mcdonald beside..
a perfect location for campers..
god, get me some head porter stuff in retail price,
s'il vous plaît..
.
for more info
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可不可以爱我 - 卢学叡

says everything...
:')

great .

WOAH !
everything was just so great isn't it ?
i thought i'm the one who was hanging there all the while,
but seems now u're the one who is trying to get rid of it ?
is it necessary for u to do all those lil actions ? =S

-
there, [shift] + [delete] me if you want,
i won't mind =) ..
because i won't die even if u did that..
i'm not like u being such selfish,
better be honest to yourself..

-
i have learn to be generous nowadays,
i'll still treat u as how i use to if u don't mind :) ..
life is too short for me to be stingy,
i live to enjoy and shake my ass..

-
do i feel speechless for what u did ?
nah, i still can type until this page goes error

and blogger network hang like shits..
but that's unnecessary for me..
i'll just take whatever is it and pretend i saw nothing =D ..

-
oki doki puki poki roti..
aite, it's time to farm..
wonder how's my potato fields doing ?
i fly ! phooof ! =]
...
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iamvividvid.blogspot.com

tolong,
currently lost my passion on blogging,
even everything i guess..
i believe myself is kinda outdate recently..
but i know what is swine flu okay,
i do read newspaper every morning..
.
iamvividvid.blogspot.com is officially 1 year old now..
thank you for the supports..
i got no idea why would this sweet sour spicy vivid blog
turns into so bitter and grey recently..
maybe we do need some grey to make it more interesting,
perhaps..
.

stand up .

还记得小学的时候，每一年的运动会我都会参与.

有一年，跑到中途的时候，我却突然摔了一跤.

膝盖和手掌都流血不止，

但我依然爬起来，继续向前跑，

最终为自己夺得季军和免费的红新月会包扎服务.

.

我虽然跌倒了，但我会爬起来.

因为我不服气，也爱挑战，更爱面子.

.

每当我摔了一跤，都可能需要一些时间来修复，

但是很快的，我就能够再次站起来，

而且站得比以前更加的稳.

.

感谢那些瞧不起我的人们，

谢谢你们那些天真无知般的异人眼光.

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most familiar stranger .

....................i don't remember since when,

..................i dare not look into your eyes anymore..

................you start treating me politely..

..............you never want to talk to me..

............you never laugh on my humors..

..........you never want to share good news with me..

........you never want to reply my messages nor emails..

......every steps that you'd made would only forcing yourself..

....you can stop that as i know it's hard for you to do so..

..just let me do it by myself, that would be easier for you..

.

.....................probably since the day,

.....................we are now the most familiar stranger..

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would u read about this ?

life is getting miserable..

too much things happened recently..

yet, there's more to come..

i wonder if there will be any good one ?

yea, there will be one,

at least one after this..

because it's the beginning of the bad..

.

still remember all the things that you had said to me..

indeed,

very clearly in my mind i would said..

but are they going to come true ?

perhaps..

because reality is always cruel..

you even might not remember what you had said to me i guess..

.

maybe i'm one of the silly person who's going to extinct soon..

who would insist to keep promises towards others and always hope the same in return..

extinct animal are valuable,

but extinct human don't even worth for a cent..

i shall never do something like that anymore to anyone..

unless if it's you..

.

i think you won't even will read about this..

just,

if there's a day you feeling tired and don't wish to walk anymore,

u may come over to me,

and we'll go further together..

don't forget that my promises is still counting as long as i'm alive..

i'm sure you would know where am i..

.

bless >*

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nightmare .

sometimes,

.

some silly and unlogic nightmare in this reality would

just kicked your sexy ass up from the middle of nite..

.

that is when u feel your heart pumping faster than usual,

sweating cold sweats, feeling hot even if u're sleeping in a refrigerator..

.

then u would wish there's someone beside

u wish to let u hugging each other tightly..

.

and u would try to get back to sleep but u hardly sleep

anymore as millions of things turning up in your mind..

.

therefore, u start rolling from left to right,

up to down, upside down to backside down,

or even start doing stretching exercises on your bed..

.

i had too much recently..

.

please don't push her..

u can take me..

just leave her alone..

please...

.

let's chill..

went to renew passport with el in the morning but unfortunately there was something wrong with her identity card so we're unable to do it.. sorry to hear about that la.. (i already told u my friend's incident few minutes ago before u got your bad news, so u should had some preperation about it right =O )..
.
next stop, went to some "newly built hotel" located in ss17 to pick up hanng before we look for semut and headed to one utama.. the strawberry case suddenly popped up in my mind when i type until here..
el u know who u are : "做咩我無嗝? 做咩我無嗝?? 做咩我無嗝!?!?!?"
(pay attention on the punctuation and imagine the expression)
oh my god, that was really joke of the day..
.
then picked up some insane malay woman nearby kdu..
i bet u all know who la by just refering to the color..
damn, i forgot to take photos of that..
there will be next time..
.
we had our lunch at pasta zanmai..

Onsen Tamago
to make it sounds nicer and special,
i named it,
half boiled imported air flown japan omega farm chicken egg boiled with diamond water in soy sauce..

Hamburg
for your information, this is not a dog food..
it could be a dog food but it isn't a dog food..
i mean it is not suitable for your dog..
if u think this is dog food then it means that u doesn't know how does a dog food look like..

Assorted Japanese Mushroom Pasta In Creamy Sauce
yummy, creamy, mushroomly, eggly, pastaly..

Scallop Pizza
crunchy and crispy pizza with chewable scallops..

Giant Anchovy Shisamo
el's favorite..
she enjoys swallowing the shisamo's eggs..
Shisamo X : "u killed me, but there are still thousand thousand million million of us out there.."
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walked and fooled around in the mall after our lunch before we went for our movie..
malay woman wanted to watch ^Barley Marley & Me^..

weeeee~
4 syiok sendiri-s..
the movie was quite long, 7rm ticket for a 115 minutes..
worth until my backside got paralysis in the theater =S ..
.
sent semut home since she got last minute assignment to complete and submit tomorrow..
shit her !!
she keep farting in my car loudly !!
bùûút, phûúút, pēēèt, bhéèèt..
* * * as loud as the above font size compared to this..
u don't laugh so happily over there,
i'm soon going to set couples of rules in my car for every single passanger..
yeah u.. hohoho =D..
then 3 of us off to bangsar area as hanng requested.. shop around that area while waiting sophie to come and have dinner together with us..

the happy lady with her shoe..
she actually bought it because of its box..
hahaha..
nah, i am just kidding =I ..
.
so we went to this thai cuisine restaurant located
in bangsar named Planter Jim's..
but i didn't find nothing much Jim item also..
err, maybe forks and knifes ? but tat's normal..
are u feeling, cold ?

Steamed Rice in Lotus Bowl
even it served in such a nice n un-jim bowl,
but the rice doesn't taste extra ordinary delicious..

Stir Fried Baby Kailan
this isn't the baby size that we used to have outside..
shit, kena con..

Pandan Chicken
looked like steamed rice dumpling aka 粽..
smells like pandan taste like chicken..
pandan is pandan, chicken is chicken..
chicken is not pandan, pandan is not ayam..
ayam is chicken, pandan is still pandan..

Tasting Platter
read carefully, i typed "tasting platter", not "testing platter"..
we had to pay for this platter..
the round thingy start from right is like fish ball with some assoted veges in it.. then spring rolls, and the 1 beside is fried bread with shrimp and minced fish.. the last 1 which looked like over fried hash brown was actually chicken wings..

Thai Style Steam Siakap
this fish was only half..
good thing was there isn't much bones..
and it taste not bad..
sour but not really spicy..
bad thing was it might be a lil too pricy..
half fish costed us 45rm..

Sago Gula Melaka
we were now swimmed to melaka from thailand..
shit, if they named it sago gula thailand i also not that pissed..
already said it's thai cuisine then suddenly the word melaka came out..

Ice Kacang
ice kacang in the night market is much more nicer than this..
sometimes human are meant to be con..
just that whether it's a big con, small con or sundae cone..
shit why mcd doesn't serve twist flavor sundae cone anymore !?
because if u're too smart not to get con u'll feel bored after some time.. so let's forget about it..
i enjoy the dinner not because of the food,
yet the people..
=)
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i'm still here,
and it's still there..
but u're not there..
just not there yet..
perhaps ?
.

kiss a 10 .

today's dinner at kissaten..

Crunchy Stewed Pork Slice
chewy instead of crunchy..
if u don't mind chewing u may try it..

Seafood Spaghetti in Tomato Sauce
i think they should use other seafood ingrediants as well rather than just prawn.. it serves with a choice of white sauce or tomato sauce..

Pork Belly Spaghetti
pinkish porku with a golden half boiled egg..
not only sexy..
but taste great too..

Dark Choco Pudding
this taste fantastic..
it's really firm and the sweetness was just right..
i feel so pork after had so much of porku..
=@
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你们知道吗?
其实,
放屁 放手也是一种温柔,
更是一种爱 .
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etc .

lunch at sushi zanmai one utama..

Potato Mayo

Tempura Mori

Ebi Temari

Tekka Don

getting bored with their menu..

will go back to pasta zanmai for the next visit..

then dinner at brisik jaya one..

serving local and indonesian delicacies..

colorful interior,

yet more to improve..

lousy music..

Dory Fried Rice

food doesn't really taste good..

wrinkled table cloth..

poor services..

only the colours impressed me..

then went over to chulo cafe for beer session..

Beers

Croquetas de Pollo

deep fried minced chicken and mushroom ball..

worth for a try..

just sing..

Simon buzzed up for a drink during the evening..
pick up semuT and went for dim sum with Simon and Genie..
and they decide to go for singing session..
i ain't feeling good due to my sore throat..
but i still joined them for the fun since there were only 4 of us..

burrrp !
with Simon, the future HR manager..

as usual,
with the most celaka person in my life..
i think my life will be shortened after knowing her,
but still,
worth of it..
i lost my voice at the end..
how pity..

i'm not that drunk yet..
.

relaxing night..

had a night out with el and semut for a dinner at sushi zanmai one utama.. i can't recall when was the last time 3 of us hang out together.. 3 months back i guess ? when i came back from china..

gals looking at the menu..
we had quite a lot of food since 3 of us have fussy tummy..

Chawanmushi

Maguro Temaki

Soft Shell Crab Temaki

Unagi Yanagawa

this taste like herbal soup..

Kanimayo Yaki

Kani Mayo & Kani Corn Sushi

Soft Shell Crab Maki

Dragon Roll

Hotate Mentaiyaki

this taste horrible, to me..

Soft Shell Crab

we ordered all of the soft shell crab dishes..

i was worried about that i'm going to have a nightmare later on..

that tons of soft shell crab chasing after me at the beach..

finished our dinner around 10pm+ and we off to jaya1 for a drink..

the charles & keith stalker..

we made a brave decision to try at kissaten..

without any regret..

Kissaten means cafe

Edamame

el's favorite..

Paulaner Naturtrüb

all the way from germany..

nicest beer i ever had..

even the price is a lil costly, it's worth..

Häagen-Dazs

strawberry flavor..

we ordered 1 scoop but the lovely boss gave us another scoop foc..

Honey Lemon Soda

recommended beverage..

kinda refreshing..

Azuki Pumpkin Zenzai

glutinous rice and red bean paste in pumpkin sauce..

its level of sweetness just great..

.

tonight, i am not drunk..

not at all..

thanks gals..

=)

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